...GRAND HUSTLE HOMIE..

I LOVE GRAND HUSTLE...

I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING THEY PUT OUT IS A HIT..

DISAGREE??..SHAME ON U!!..LOL

[nahh but in MY opinion they the -ISH..]

--xoxo Tash!

&&..there will NEVER be another like you!

"..Never can say goodbye.."

--DANG! I feel like death is just one aspect of life i'll NEVER get over..or be prepared for! It's such a HUGE loss for all:: entertainment,music, his family,& friends--I was one the BIGGEST MJ fans, since like the age of 3. Now that I think about it, I was doing dance moves & singing along to songs that were out wayyyy before I was even THOUGHT about!! I would just sit home and watch MJ concert tapes ALLL DAYY long//EVERYday!!--that was probably the reason why i took this death like this:: i feel as if I knew him, & it was because of the fact that he had the ability to make you sing songs & relate to him even NO MATTER your age, race, religion, size, etc. He was what the world lacks--he was creative NOT weird, he was a genius NOT a fool, he wanted for others what he didn't have...No matter the rumors or how the media portrayed him I believed he was the total opposite--people look at me & some of the things I wear & say "that doesnt match!" or "what are doing? your turning white"...you eventually learm to accept the fact that AMERICA REJECTS what it does't UNDERSTAND!..it NEGLECTS what it hasn't seen..&& DISS' who it isn't or wants to be...I now see that it really pushes some people over the edge..NOT KOOL AMERICA!! No worries MIKE, I'll live through & for you--DIfferent is Gold & Different was YOU!!

"....JUST A SOUL WHOSE INTENTIONS ARE GOOD..OH LORD! PLEASE DON'T LET ME BE MIS-UNDERSTOOD!!"-----&& he was JUST that, Misunderstood!!..so sad!

YOU ARE MISSED...& LOVED!

--xoxo Tash!

My BLACK is BEAUTIFUL...

I'm not sure if you guys saw it but Tyra Banks had a couple days [may have been a week] on her show where she showcased her "BLACK"..or hair! the shows were talking about why and how black women try to deny their hair and the texture of it:: && it kept talking about "good hair & bad hair"--I have been guilty of labeling some hair good & some bad but it was all in the way it was styled...No hair is better than the other, I just think some is more taking care of than others...My hair is a MAJOR factor in my presentation & if its NOT done then I feel insecure about the way I look & the way I'm being perceived... I think that us as black women tend to think it is more manageable if we get a relaxer--not to make us unaware or our roots or "roots"...well I am a victim or getting a relaxer--but it wasnt by choice..I got my first relaxer at age 6 by my aunt and my mom was FURIOUS..but ever since then I was getting them..then at age 9 or 10 she went back to me getting my hair straightened.. but it never lasted long [because of playing outside, cheering, & softball..] so she went back to the relaxers :-( After that I couldnt stand NOT having a perm, everytime I felt my roots and felt "new growth" I was DEMANDING a visit to the hair salon---but July of 2008 was my last perm && now I am OH NAT-U-RALLLL!! && i LOVE it..I think that chemicals take away the natural oils & texture of our hair, not that EVERYONE has the same texture but i DEF notice a change in my hair. I just recently cut my ends [the last remaining pieces of perm..] my hair is SHORT now, but i can deal with it..i know it was for the better and it'll grow back! :-/

HERE IS MY HAIR CUTTT :-/

BEFORE [AND] AFTER::

IT'LL GROW ON ME, RIGHT?

--xoxo Tash!

Random-NESS...my thoughts @ 5:27am...

mmmmmm...SO MUCH on the brain::i have NO IDEA why I'm still up...I was so tired before but now I'm up doing....NOTHING! Wish I had someone to talk to :-/ to bad...MTV Jams is a MAJOR factor in my wacked out sleep cycle--it seems like as soon as i start to doze off a video comes on that i want to see..SUCKS! This is why I sleep all day!! I wonder how the crowd will be @ Intrigue tomorrow [well tonight, technically]--I REALLY need to get some sushi..i miss CLEMSONNN :-( as usual, I'm wanna move to the West Coast...when LOVE knocks you down do you REALLY get back up??...hmmm, does REAL really Recognize Real??--how'd you really know?? idk about anything now-a-days..WHY ASK WHY, rite?!!...ANYWHOO, MANNNNN i've been gone for alittle while, i WILL do better...alot has happened since my last post....

--Father's Day: I did absolutely NOTHING for it..My mom was out of town and I was here..BORED!!

--RUN'S HOUSE: The new season of Run's House aired..yesss!! i was WAYYY to excited for it...I've haven't watched tv & wished I was in someone else's family since Olivia was on the Cosby Show...That is a family with HOPE, LOVE, and Understanding...when or more like IF i get married--thats EXACTY how I'd want my family to be.

--COURT: I [along with my friends] went to court for the incident I/we had last month. It was CRAZYYYY--&& i mean that in EVERY aspect of the word..it was like television or a movie or something, its an experience that i will NOT be looking forward to..EVER again!!..nevertheless, WE WON!! :-) && to think the Cops were against us at first..GOOD ALWAYS PREVAILS!

--LIFE: its crazy but I'm starting to understand it..MINUS a few glitches [people]..DANG!, hate to say it but YES, i KEEP cutting off people to eventually let them BACK in..knowing its the WRONG thing to do....I'm trying to work on that butttt its taking alittle longer than I expected..OH WELL for that! My friends say I'm to Nice yet the strangers say i'm STUCK UP! i'll Never know...

thats all for now--i'm gonna try to SLEEP!!

zzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZ!!

--xoxo Tash!

O M G!!! REMIXXXXX!!

this girl can really sing!!

omgggg--LYRICALLY JOJO DEF put the life of ALL teenage girls in here..

I LOVEEE THIS REMIX--best BY FAR..

DANG, i had forgot ALL about her....SHES BACKKK!!

--xoxo Tash!

...19 & Enlightened..

ahhhhhhhhhh!!! I'm kind of upset that my birthday is over now :-( wowwww!! when i woke up yesterday all i could think about was:: 19 years ago today I came into this world && a year before that I wasn't even thought of!! Man I could help but to think about what my mothers life would be like if she didn't have me in it...[thinking...] DANG! I must say that this birthday DEF opened my eyes to certain aspects of life && myself...I wasn't even excited at first but when it was actually here I felt as if I was on top of the world because I was still living!!

I DEF believe that with age comes wisdom--& at 19 years of age I am one strong//passionate young woman!! I think that I believe in what I want to and that makes me who I am--I dress different and unusual according to my surroundings yet that comforts me within...I have come to terms with the fact that I can't change the things that have happened in my past, i can only burry them look forward to my future--I tend to think that you have to have it all to be happy when that isn't always the case....

My 19th birthday was AMAZING!! && i did ABSOLUTELY nothing; my day went as followed:: woke up--gave my dog a bath, Showered, nail shop, ate breakfast that my BFF Kayla made for me [PANCAKESSSS--my fav!], Mall, went to eat at one of my FAV restuarants in Lil 5 points, then off to the Club for a bit with the rest of my friends!!..after that we went to Waffle House && they sang Happy Birthday to me--& almost ate all of my cake!!...YES, i spent the ending of my 19th birthday in a place I don't even eat at...&& it was AWESOME...i had soooo much fun!! I guess in some cases--SIMPLICITY is KEY!!

But as I got home, I couldnt sleep and I began to think about actually getting older and how life is going to start getting harder and harder:: i love to sit and watch as little kids run around and scream like there is no tomorrow--i would give anything to go back to the times when I had no worries..uugghhh!! buttt thats LIFE, rite?

I just feel like 19 is a TEASING age..you can do the same thing as you did when you were 18 and your going to do the same thing next year when you turn 20..ahhhh THIS SUCKS!!

but i do THANK GOD for allowing me to live another year--because in all honesty, there were times when i thought I shouldn't have....

--xoxo Tash!

&& Mr.West does it again..

--xoxo Tash!

...DAILY DOSE OF FUNNY!!

this is sooooo FUNNY!!!...lol

--go on you tube && look at ALL the Notorius Bum videos..

sooooooooo FUNNY!!..

My thoughts @ 1:48am..

[sigh..] idk if i'm sleepy or not!!?? MTV Hits [chan. 163 for Comcast users] is really jammin' rite now...so much to do this up coming week..ahhhhhhhhhh!! LOL, in a good way tho--more time with the Bestie :-) b4 she goes back off to LSU :-( !!! I had a GOOD day--it started at approx. 3am with the BEST sleepover ever!! hahahaa!! I DEF love Reece, Keem,& DeDe...what a trip!! Packed like mexicans in this full size!! LOL, Mannnnnn Perimeter was kinda of a success--got some cute stuff--my night was eventful--went to my "juvie's" party!! it was kool--HOT but kool..I kind of get irritated with heat && my hair DOES NOT agree with it either...I wish I had an ice-cream sandwich, it's been on my mind lately!! OMGGG i want a Jamaican chicken patty..ahhhhhhh i GOTTA get one tomorro!! Dang, not ready for that ride to Birmingham tomorrow butttt i wont leave my mom hangin'...I can't wait until I go back to school--I can't wait until I graduate from school, i need to start my CAREER..ASAP!! hmmmmm idk--i want to watch Sex & the City // EVERY season..lol, LOVE THAT SHOW!! wait!!, i saw the ORIGINAL Willie Wonka today--that was my FAV movie..I wonder who's going to be next to call me?? I wonder why no one has :-( ?? ahhhh i feel LAME!!..LOL, idk--haha...LATERRR!!

--xoxo Tash!

...Young L.A. ... You Like??

THIS LOOKS SOOOOOOO CHEAP TO ME..

BUT HEY--wateva floats his boat!!

--xoxo Tash!

My thoughts @ 12:22am..

hmmmm...YESSSS!!! im not an NBA fan butttt i'm DEF a D.Howard fan--i'm wayyyyy to excited that they won..but anywhoo as usual i'm all over the place..I'm thinking about alot: my birthday coming up, tomorrows plans, going out, SHOPPING, Reg & Malik, and MOST DEF school...I miss CLEMSON UNIVERSITY wayyy to much!! :-/ I kind of wish i can sing...lol..RANDOM?? i know!

I want to know who the HECK told this 'Ashley' girl [from Charm School] to get this HORRIBLEEE extensions job..her weave is so BAD! it's sad, hmmmmm I wonder what my minor is gonna be?? Beats me right about now...education? production? film? or Music?---smh I NEED to get it together...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SCREAMMMMMMMM--i'm going into my india arie mode--"get it together"-from the Brown Sugar soundtrack!!...LATA!!

--xoxo Tash!

"Anybody from ATLANTA...???"

Ok so I knew I was gonna write something to do with this but it wasn't sure when..then yesterday my bro "Rich" b.k.a Richard was talking about how his summer has been? and "what he's been up to?" and you know what he replied---"Nun much, just trying to get one of these ANYBODY FROM ATLANTA rap deals they giving out.." lOL LOL hahahahaaa...to me, that was THEE funniest thing everr!! LOL LOL especially since I wan't even prepared for that answer..haha LOVE HIM!!

But in all honesty--i started thinking and he's right // their starting to be more appreciative of the younger generation...these big time people like Def Jam..Univeral//Motown..SOny BMG..etc, are really starting to snatch up local ATL artist after only one hit--i think that they are starting to realize that you could always mold someone's career instead of just thinking that they all suck because they don't start off snapping like T.I.P, Jigga, Nas, Big, Pac..etc!!

It's only right that they give them a chance...Although, they may flopp after their first album I feel that getting a chance and attempting was better than NOTHING at all..

i gotta say BIG UP'S TO ALL THE ATLANTA ARTIST//north,south,west,&& MOST DEF the one's holding down the EAST SIDE!! ... yall keep us rockin'..

HERE'S a few of them with deals..GOOD LUCK GUYS!!

--Although, i'm not a BIG fan of EVERYTHING that comes out of ATL--credit is DEF due!! if i was an A&R [look it up if you don't know what it means..] I'd pick up a couple artist.. You??

--xoxo Tash!!

...it's just those RAINY days!! :-/

Don't you hate how when it rains it feels like it calls for your mind to run at about 100000000 mph!???---I know I do, it feels like if it doesn't make me sleepy it's making me think about either certain people...places...LIFE...flaws...events...decisions...or even the future!!

It may sound weird but im just sitting on my steps with the door open watching the rain as it falls at an akward diagonal pattern..I believe that the most effective thoughts come from those on rainy days..it seems as if it lets you be free, open minded, and aware of the "world" as it may seem....But for some reason, in my life--when it rains it POURS!! So there's always those days you sit outside on the porch while it rains and cry just so no one else can notice or even hear it...

Crying is a natural emotion...I used to think that when you cried it was a sign of "weakness" or "fear"--but as I've gotten older I feel that it is an emotional CLEANSE for your heart--mind--body--AND soul!! There is noway I would have gotten through some hard times without shedding a couple tears here & there!! I think it is a STRENGTH to actually notice that something is wrong with someone or something in your life && by knowing there is nothing you can do about it you mind as well let it out!!--To express an emotion is wayyyy better than holding it in because it'll DEFINITELY become LETHAL..in my life I go about crying the same as I do praying--You should just cry for that limited time then suck it up--walk away--&& leave it there!! It makes no sense to dwell on what COULD've, WOULD've, or SHOULD've been--God will take care of it..Therefore, there is no worries...RIght???

These are the kinds of days I dreaddddd because I hate my SCATTERED BRAIN..lol--but then again it keeps me grounded..because if im already aware of what happened then I would most likely not find myself in that position again..Some might call it FEAR but I'd call it "KNOWLEDGE"...hmmm IDK, maybe that's just me!!?? :-/

I just believe that no matter what or who we are we should use EVERY aspect or ability that was given to us--unlike me not everyone likes to express themselves through text or writing..yet, they have other talents that they should embrace...I love how diverse the world could be if everyone stopped going for the same thing or type of industry because of the money but do what they are actually GOOD at--I think the pay off would be soooo much greater than money..Doesn't it just make more sense to go to school to be a teacher because of your ability to teach others && get them to comprehend instead of going to school for 8-12 years to be some type of Doctor because they get paid more--then after the 1st year not be excited to go to work--Agree or Disagree??

FORGIVE ME FOR JUMPING ALL OVER THE PLACE WITH THIS ONE...lol

i just had to throw that out there---FOOD FOR THOUGHT...i guess!!

--xoxo Tash!!

HOTT orrrr [NOT.] ??!!

IDK IF I'M A FAN OF HER STICKING TO THE "HER & 2 DANCERS" FOR ALL OF THE VIDEOS OF THE 'SASHA FIERCE' ALBUM--IT'S KINDA PLAIN JANE...BUT HEY!! IN SOME CASES "SIMPLICITY IS KEY"....RITE?--ANYWHOO:: THE GIRL LOOKS GOOD SO I SEE WHY HER 'EGO' IS SO BIG!!

LOVE HER...!!!
"EGO" video...



--xoxo Tash!

SORRYYY...

.smh.
OK MY APOLOGIES!!
i know i've been gone and slippin but im BACK!!
---school is OUT && i've SUCCESSFULLY completed my first year of COLLEGE!!
WOW!! Talk about excited...i would have to say that i came out wayyy more aware of things than i was before i went...
DEFINITELY a learning experience--it was HARD and time consuming but i wouldn't trade it for the world!!

other than that my summer has kicked off--HORRIBLY!!
it's the kind of thing that really makes u reflect on the people and things you value...
i have a whole new respect for things that i once took for granted---

i'm OFFICIALLY making it my business to go to church: Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday..etc.
you get my drift!! When life brings you to certain situations you do all that you need to in order to protect yourself from it happening again...
--like partying less and focusing on what's actually going on..

IDK...maybe it's just me and my opinion...

ahhhhhh [sigh]--IT FEELS GOOD TO BE BACK...lol :-)

--xoxo Tash!

REMIXXXX..

ok...so earlier I paid respect to my dudes...DEM GET A WAY BOYZ..&& posted a couple of their songs on here--but nowwwwwww they have a REMIX to IMMA G feat. Mr.Fansworth Bentley && Shawty Lo..can we say BIG THANGS!!???--they doin it EXTRA big && as of now tis is the NEW THEME SONG FOR THE NEXT SEASON of From G's To Gents...now THATS WASSUP!!..
im soooo proud of u guys....


--xoxo Tash!

REEEEEEE-WIIIINNNDDDD!!

THROW BACK JOINT OF THE DAY:
[WEDNESDAY---APRIL 8, 2009]



Sometimes you GOTTA ASK these things..
" it be like that sometimes..."

--xoxoTash!

&& it's the story of 'HER' LIFE...

So here's to 'YOU'...

Dear "YOU",
Not that we pick on you often or analyze you on purpose.
We are just here to HELP!
YOU can't understand the meaning of LOVE and LIFE
if you don't understand the meaning of LOVING YOURSELF.

YOU can't see that your downplaying and undermining your wealth?
I guess it's because his size & performance is blinding & dangerous to your health.
I'm NOT sure if it's a warning sign but i DO know that it's saying your rep is dying!

I Love 'YOU' girlie but don't think you can change..
Caught between LUST and what's RIGHT!..
you haven't figured it out yet--Only time will tell...

But as much as you continue to give the more THEY'LL take..
I guess you were like Drake before the mixtape came along...
I'm just gonna say I MISS YOU 'cause your "SO FAR GONE"

--Author = Tash!

STORY OF YOU(r) LIFE:: [watch below..]
If you aren't a fan--YOU SHOULD BE!!..
I know plenty females who can attest to this song::
[ESPECIALLY ONE..]

FLU?...COLD?...NO! JUST HOME SICK!!

awwww MAN!..here we go with this again..This is why I HATE going on Facebook--i like to just get on, check my messgaes/ notifications, and GET OFF!!.. But for some reason i DIDN'T just do that this time. tthis time i started to go through pictures and stuff and just began to tear up.. DANG MAN!!--uugghhh..((&& here it comes again!))--It just pains me to see memories and all the fun that I had with my friends from home..its not just that but we're ALL seperated now...when you need someone to have your back & you turn around to see who's there its a BLANK CANVAS because we're all in differnet places...I wouldn't say i'm homesick but i'd say that i DEF miss the 'OLD DAYS'...I miss the way we laughed about Middle school--the pool party we MADE at Paul's Bouldercrest Rd. house--our Senior Water fight--the DRAMA over boys in middle school--the way we formed frinedships that'll last FOREVER!!..I just miss how I could call my mom and ask for something and she'd have it o me in .5 seconds--now i gotta drive a hour and 30 minutes to get stuff... I miss how things in my LIFE used to be:: -Relationships..-Family..-HOPE!...I hate to see people who are HOPELESS but sometimes certain situations make u feel this way...it's wierd that we search around to find thing s to BELIEVE IN all the while looking above and beyond the ability to believe in OURSELVES!!..I guess every now and then I feel the need to vent because of the fact that I am away from the people that know me the best---i guess that's just what life does to you. I MISS YOU GUYS, MOM, ATLANTA, and the ones that HURT ME!!..it's all helping me GROW! :-/

--xoxo Tash!

DON'T MISS IT--DON'T MISS IT--DON'T MISS ITTTTT!!!

P.S.A::: THE HILLS RETURNS TO MTV----TTTTOOOOONNNIIIIGGGHHHTTT!!
@ 10PM....IF U MISS IT...YOU SUCCCKKKK!!

THIS IS LAUREN CONRAD'S LAST SEASON [TEAR]...SOOOOO U CAN'T MISS ANYTHING!!

--xoxo Tash!