omgg, WHY DO WE LOVE Love?? *sigh* GIRLY GIRL MOMENT

...IDK about you but Monica DID THEE Damn thing with this song...the video concept...and her wardrobe was ONNN POINT! *sigh* She's like the perfect role model to me: Beautiful,Dedicated, Caring, Great mother, HOOD as hell, & she DONT take NO shit! lol but really if you think about it she is so Down to earth...And this video damn near made me cryyyy *sigh* lol

MY KINDA CHICK, you DO NOT play behind what/who you love....& she shows that!

LOVE LOVE LOVEEE IT :o)

BTW, the RED DRESS that she is wearing was designed/made by LEE 'ALEXANDER' MCQUEEN...RIP, he was a GENIUS..PURE GENIUS..if any of you follow me on twitter then you would remember me ranting about his FAIRY TALE 1oinch heels that I want SO BAD,

which he made.....

what a SAD SAD day in Fashion...smh--REST IN PEACE!!

--xoxoTash!

ok ok...WHEEWWW WEEKENDS!

SORRY SORRY!!!

...I was in Statesboro,GA at Ga Southern University with my bestfriend bri and my Fence, of course! Maurice, Hakeem, & myself drove out there Friday afternoon and stayed until Monday morning--we left at 4:30am...BIGGG MISTAKE because I am NOT a morning person at alllll...lol But i had a BLAST! sooo sooo much fun...Whoever thought house parties are still fun, ONLY in statesboro..lol ONLY IN STATESBORO..try that in ATL and I dont think it'll work out so well..lol

BUT IM BACK AT SCHOOL NOW...so that means BLOG 24/8 [[i kno its 24/7 but i say 8 to VERIFY that i mean ALLLLL the time..EVERYYY day, get it?? kool]] lol :o)

--xoxo Tash!

..Growing Pains...

As I sit here in my Journalism class I am realizing college is basically SURVIVAL of the FITEST....ugh, I hate the fact that with growing up things start to become so difficult. Not so much this class but the planning of the future. Its weird that I never have a direct answer when my teacher or other people ask me what I want to do when I graduate from college--as sad as it is i still DONT KNOW...I know what my major is [Mass COMM] but I dont know what the hell comes after that....How do people go about this whole life planning and goal setting stuff?? was it something they were taught in school?? 'cause I think I missed that lesson. Mind you, Its only me and two other black people in my class [which is ALOT compared to my other major courses] and it does get kind of discouraging to ask questions when you don't really know whats going on.

I've just been observing and learning the art of being "independent"; and it SUCKS! lol-- remembering to pay bills, make your own appointments, find a job, etc. its so STRESSFUL. Everyone thinks its cool to talk about not needing help and being independent when REALLY most people, especially those who still stay with their parents are the most DEPENDENT ones--they provide us transportation, home cooked meals, and SHELTER! If you think your independent/GROWN but you stay in a house with your parents your WRONG, lol SORRY! TRY AGAIN.

SMH, I just HATE the thought of GROWING UP :( filing taxes, car notes, COLLEGE LOANS...OMG, WHY??? I wish I could of stayed young--Nevertheless, I've learned alot; but learning and not displaying your knowledge hasnt done anything for anyone. Maybe its because Im an only child and im "spoiled" but I do NOT want to do any of the stuff that comes along with growing up--I dont want to work under anyone because I HATE people telling me what to do, smh! I guess I should start my own business ventures, Hell idk!! I'm a handful I kno...im sure everything will fall in place tho......as long as I #PUTGODFIRST :o)

....once again, just rambling on!!! Guess I'll start my In class assaignment now :-/

--xoxo Tash!

my thoughts @ 3:14 am..

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh my Sign Language Midterm is TOMORROW and I have YET to study..smh, TERRIBLE! my Women Studies midterm is Thursday and i have YET to read the book thats its on..Why am i such a procrastinator?? :o/ i'll never know! Damn, im kinda feeling some type of way about the way i used to feel..[if that makes ANY sense]...South Park has GOT to be the most vulgar/disrespectful cartoon EVER made...hands down, LOL! I wanna participate in Lent but don't know what to give up. I think I wanna give up EVERY food that I have in my cabinets--I wanna eat ORGANICALLY for 40 days..buttt idk how thats gonna work!

I wonder what my mommy's doing? haven't talked to her ALL DAY...not normal! I wonder what YOUR doing? What do readers think about when they read my blogs.....this new Nivea song is DEF on the soundtrack entitled "MY LIFE", i kno EXACTLY how she feels...LOVE does suck sometimes. why do guys protect their feelings?? is it a sign of weakness? I think Im kinda sleepy--I MISS YOU!! umm idk, just rambling. Night Dolls!

--xoxo Tash!

...HAPPY MARDI GRAS world!

It's about that time and I'm SAD to say that IM NOT THERE :o( I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mardi Gras and I've been going almost EVERY year since I turned 1 years old. There's nothing like family, food(cajun), friends, and FUN! *wink*

Mardi Gras is so exciting and colorful, it just makes you think of letting go to enjoy the festivities--The name Mardi Gras means "FAT TUESDAY". In Catholic churches today marks the day before Ash Wednesday (the da

y Lent/40 day fast starts)--On Fat Tuesday you would eat all that you could/indulge in any activities so that when 'ASH WEDNESDAY', the starting day of the fast--you would be free of all those things(plus whatever else your giving up) for 40 days . It's an interesting History behind Mardi Gras--you should Def look it up.

I hope that everyone remains SAFE out there and that they get REALLY drunk...LOL [kidding]

but if your participating in Lent, what do you plan to give up for 40 days?? hhmmm!

--xoxo Tash!

im FEELING myself :o)

..SOOOOOOOOO, I'm definitely NOT a fan of standardized test....but I just took one of my Midterms and IT WENT GREATTT!! I figured that since I hate being here (at school) why not just do what I have to do to get outta here. As long as I do my work and focus when I need to I should be fine. Its just so stressful to try to focus when your mind is always on something else. I stayed up until about 4-almost 5am studying for my Journalism midterm (that I'm sure I Aced). Its a GREAT feeling to be confident, and an even greater feeling to know that you KNOW the information!

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh im so EXCITED, but EXCUSE ME! i'm FEELING MYSELF right now *wink*

--xoxo Tash!

HOT 8 at 8..

1."Daddy's Home"-Usher ft. Plies

2."TikTok"-Ke$ha

3"Oh lets Do it [REMIX]"-Waka Flocka ft. Pdiddy,RickRoss,GucciMane

4."Say Something"-Timberland ft. Drake

5."Everything to Me"-Monica

6."Go SHorty Go"-Travis Porter

7."Lemonade"-GucciMane

8."How Low REMIX"-Ludacris

....Thats just what I'M playing on my ipod....!! :o)

--xoxo Tash!

My thoughts @ 7:08pm..

hmmmmmm....As i sit here watching Intervention ALOT is filling up my brain :-/ which is NOTTTTTT kool....Its so much that I have, want, and NEED to do....ugghh! I definitely have a midterm for journalism in the morning and haven't studied SSSHHHIITTT smh, I have to finish my interviewing story to turn in tomorrow....SPRINGBREAK plans for MIAMI....school plans--still waiting on my grade change so I can send in my transcripts to GaState and SCAD. I wonder what YOU think about on a daily basis?!! where am I gonna be in 2 years, hell 2 months!.....JOSEPH! If i were to put some of my family members on Intervention how would they react? Is FORGIVENESS really all they say it's cracked up to be?? Apartment hunting in ATL again..but this time 3 bedrooms instead of 2! Why the hell is everyone having babies now? they're cute and all but ummm, I just don't get it! Why is it that females have the tendency to be TORN in between two guys? hmmm I wonder if you THINK about me like I think about YOU?...TWITTER is DEF the new facebook! I really HATE seeing cute couples--Like I really do LOL, idk y tho!! i LOVE love tho...Nevertheless-I want a NEW CAR, I miss ATL and I just got back from there this morning--MY FUTURE? I STILL don't know what I wanna be when I grow up...uuugghhh maybe i should start studying, or NOT? plain and simple DECISIONS DECISIONS :o( WHYY??!!!

--xoxo Tash!

#NOWPLAYING ...

top 5 Mixtapes to look for AND Download to your Ipod/CPU/MP3...

1)Drake-'Heartbreak Drake 5'

2)6Lack- 'HeartLess'

3)Waka Flocka Flame-'Lebron Flocka James pt.2"

4) FKI-'Bluesteel 2.0'

5) Slim Dunkin-'Built 4 Interrogation'

--xoxo Tash!

WOW!!! cue the WATERWORKS...'cause I DEF cried..

THIS SONG IS JUST BEAUTIFUL..NO OTHER WAY TO SAY IT,I BELIEVE THAT THIS MODERN VERSION IS BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL...

WHY? there's no way I can compare ANYthing to the original 'WE ARE THE WORLD" but as far as youth these days, this version is definitely more understanding.

When a child watches television and they see people they admire [actresses, actors,musicians,athletes,etc.] then it's more common for them to grasp the message

thats being sent through the video.

i LOVE LOVE LOVE it..

--xoxo Tash!

..i should be an A&R :o)

....ON THE RISE!

--My darling Ricardo "6lack" Valentine has dropped the 2nd part to his 3rd mixtape entitled 'HEARTLESS', which just so happened to have came out on VALENTINES DAY....lol--what a way to express your feelings toward love...LOL...but seriously, I remember when I met him at Miller Grove High School his Freshman year, he wrote poems with RIDICULOUS metaphors and crazyyy story lines...when I say some even brought tears to my eyes..THEY DID! He is the sweetest, most dedicated & focused individual when it comes to his craft/music! He's DEFINITELY going places--don't believe me? just LISTEN! All you music heads that aren't limited to the commercial artist or what's popping mainstream--MUST listen to this mixtape its CRAZY! You have to remember that this is where the jayZ's, Pac's,Biggie's,TI's,& Big PUn's started...you gotta show love to the people that's not so big cause when they get up there, you'll be the one(s) they THANK! [remember that] GIVE CREDIT WHERE CREDITS DUE!

Here's the link to download 6LACK 's mixtape..'HEARTLESS'

Download Mixtape | Free Mixtapes Provided by DatPiff.com

--xoxo Tash!

..."THey wanna see me DEAD--put prices on my HEAD.."

As if you guys didn't already know...My big brother Waka [Flocka Flame] was shot in a robbery attempt about a month ago...He is STILL struggling from the effects of the shooting/events that took place. Nevertheless, he is in GOOD SPIRITS--what else can you do but THANK GOD your still living. Although it was bad--it could've been MUCH worse...Alot of people are still asking me what happened? who was with him? What'd waka say to him? So i just figured I'd post his MTV interview just so most question can be answered. HERE IT IS::

And here are his other 3 videos NEWLY released::

--xoxo Tash!

btw, Happy 'LOVE' day...

JUST A LITTLE [St.] VALENTINE HISTORY FOR YOU GUYS:

St. Valentine, a Roman who was martyred for refusing to give up Christianity. He died on February 14, 269 A.D., the same day that had been devoted to love lotteries. Legend also says that St. Valentine left a farewell note for the jailer's daughter, who had become his friend, and signed it "From Your Valentine". Other aspects of the story say that Saint Valentine served as a priest at the temple during the reign of Emperor Claudius. Claudius then had Valentine jailed for defying him. In 496 A.D. Pope Gelasius set aside February 14 to honour St. Valentine.

Gradually, February 14 became the date for exchanging love messages and St. Valentine became the patron saint of lovers. The date was marked by sending poems and simple gifts such as flowers. There was often a social gathering or a ball.

--Have a Happy Valentines Day!! whether your with a Valentine or Not.... embrace yourself!

--xoxo Tash!

WHHHEEEWWWW....COBB WEBS MUCH?

IT FEELS SO GOOOOOD TO BE BACKKK [usher voice]

Damn, ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE BEEN ON [lol]..

.i've been really busy..specially whenit came to getting back in the school flow... uuugghhh SMH, im SO READY for it to be SUMMER 2010 ALREADY! Lets see, i guess i can say that i decided to come back to the blog because my thoughts were starting to KILL ME.....SLOWLY! its so much that i think about on a daily basis...its CRAZY! and this is BY FAR my ONLY means of expression...YEA, of COURSE i have a few WONDERFUL friends that i can tlk to but after talking about an issue--its STILL ON YOUR brain, WHY?? i've NEVER understood why i couldnt get myself together & BACK TO REALITY after a really lousy day...maybe its my Female tendancy? we're emotional creatures right? i'll NEVER understand it....guess it's THE ART OF BEING A GIRL :-/

SO LETS PLAY CATCH UP- BECAUSE SOOO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE JULY::

SINCE JULY 2nd [MY LAST POST ON HERE]:
There was ESSENCE FESTIVAL in New Orleans...that I go to almost EVERY year..we had sooooo much fun, i miss my family & friends :o( Other than that i spent most of July shopping for Back to school items.

AUGUST:
aaaahhhhhhhh the BACK to school-itis set in, I was ready to go back at first but once I actually got there I was READY for SUMMER all over again. I had to be at school a week-2weeks before class actually started because I was a WELCOME LEADER to the incoming Freshmen, it was a fun experience--especially to know that I could help and be a role model to those younger than me! For the weekend, We (as in "the fam" my crew from school) had a "GEMINI CELEBRATION" for the three of us with summer birthdays--it was a GREAT way to kick off the school year. It was soooo much fun, I haven't had that much fun since school started! but WOW! August realllyyyyy PUT ME THROUGH IT, to say the least...between the transition back to school and random life/boy issues it was TERRIBLE!! I would have to say that getting my mind back into school mode was THE hardest thing to do :-/ Eventually I was alright, i guess!

SEPTEMBER:
Nothing much really went down in September...Nothing but SCHOOL WORK :o( and regular work...I don't think that having a job is in my blood--i HATE going to work. Maybe it's just the OFFICE setting--i HATE office settings, they are the WORST!

OCTOBER:
OMG! I had wayyyy to much fun for Halloween this year--We had 2 costume parties this year and I participated in both! (they were the FIRST costume parties i've EVER been to) The party on Friday was Hosted by the Kappa Lambda chap. of Kappa APsi I was a cat/Lioness type thing..Lol and for the party on Saturday hosted by the Clemson University Football team I was a VICTORIA'S SECRET ANGEL (my DREAM job) :o) I had wayyy to much fun--we got there WAY late but it was worth it...My outfit caused alot of "talk" but i LOVED it so thats ALL that matters..!! :o)

NOVEMBER-DECEMBER:
Still in school flow, stressing about my COMM 201 class...I can honestly say that I cried almost EVERYday after I left that class--it was seriously, a pain in the ass! Nevertheless, there was THANKSGIVING break, which was much needed there's nothing like New Orleans and FAMILY to ease your mind! Bayou Classic weekend of course [Southern Univ. vs. Grambling Univ. football Classic] that was alot of fun, as usual. And then I had to SNAP back into REALITY--BACK TO SCHOOL! December was a RUSH--because it wasn't the END of the SCHOOL year but it was he END of the 2009 year! December 5th my 'brothers' from school crossed into GREEK LIFE! KAPPA ALPHA PSI, im SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS! LOVE YOU! If this wasn't the BEST break SINCE i've been in college then i DONT know what was. Almost Everyday and night Brianna, Waka, Mario,&Myself were Out on the town. SMH, we did sooo much and had soo much fun it was ridiculous! I wouldn't change a thing! I LOVE THOSE 3..I always had my first strip club trip over the break..lol ummm 1 word, INTERESTING! *side eye*

NEW YEAR EVE/NEW YEAR:
We brought in the New Year at Maurice's house then about 15minutes after 12am we met up with Waka and spent the rest of the night in Studio 72 [club in ATL]. We had an INTERESTING display of events in the club buttttt we STILL ENJOYED ourselves. Its always fun with those fools.

JANUARY-PRESENT:
SCHOOL, SCHOOL, AND MORE SCHOOL! ugh :o( Im OVER it!.....But as of now everything is ok...my classes are easy and I'm just doing what I have to do in order to finish the semester. Because i am TRANSFERRING for the Fall semester, BITTERSWEET! :-/

ANYWHOO I HOPE I'VE CAUGHT YOU GUYS UP ENOUGH!..............IM BACKKKK :)

--xoxo Tash!